Angry.

I’m angry

Angry that you knew all along

That you weren’t ready

Angry at myself for not listening

I think I’m going crazy

It all started when I moved

It all started when you went away

And it was awkward you know

Laying there

Talking as if it where the most natural thing in the world

And as I sit here thinking

I wish I where normal

I wish I was the same bright and bubbly girl I once was

But I can’t be

Because then the world was endless

Then I was naïve

Then I thought I could do anything

Now I know better

Now I know

That I never loved myself I just loved being better than everyone else

So how do I fix it

How do I fix me

Because everytime I see my reflection

I see failure

I see disgrace

And I see why you never really loved me

Im angry at myself for never thinking im good enough just because I don’t fit into my old jeans

Im angry

Im so very angry

Because this reason is justifiable to me in everyway.

I just want to be free

I want to start over