GI Joe - Pork Chop Sandwiches

good.

City of Portland, Maine-USA High Definition Wide Screen ( Head Light House, hurricane, Down Town)

hahahhaha.... what is up with the porn music?

Sondre Lerche - My Hands Are Shaking

love.

I WISH I WAS BETTER AT LYING!

little whitney. little cody.

vanity stole my sanity

I took a walk the other day and I thought about this world. The world we live in.

I thought of all the naïve individuals just trying to make it another day. And I wonder who am I?

And why was I so vain?

Angry.

I’m angry

Angry that you knew all along

That you weren’t ready

Angry at myself for not listening

I think I’m going crazy

It all started when I moved

It all started when you went away

And it was awkward you know

Laying there

Talking as if it where the most natural thing in the world

And as I sit here thinking

I wish I where normal

I wish I was the same bright and bubbly girl I once was

But I can’t be

Because then the world was endless

Then I was naïve

Then I thought I could do anything

Now I know better

Now I know

That I never loved myself I just loved being better than everyone else

So how do I fix it

How do I fix me

Because everytime I see my reflection

I see failure

I see disgrace

And I see why you never really loved me

Im angry at myself for never thinking im good enough just because I don’t fit into my old jeans

Im angry

Im so very angry

Because this reason is justifiable to me in everyway.

I just want to be free

I want to start over

anticipation is sometimes well worth it.

I saw my face the other day in your eyes. I saw who I was and who I could be when I stood next to you. All along I never knew it was possible, to find myself again. And you gave me the strength to understand that I am good.

and you will never know.

Are you on the line?

I felt like calling you

A couple minutes ago

But it’s 4 am

And I can’t seem to sleep threw the nights

You listen like no one has in awhile

And its refreshing

To know your only a phone call away

And I wonder why we never spoke before

Because you are amazing

Chnage

I can't sleep past 4 30 am, because my brain it keeps turning. And my head it hurts. I'm not quite sure what I'm thinking about but I'm certain it's not really that important. but who am I to shrug off my own thoughts they are there for reason. right? I keep thinking about all the people i see from day to day and never talk to. I think about where I'm going to be in the next 5 months and who I'm going to be in a year. because a year ago I was totally different under different circumstances and in love. It's strange how your whole world can change. I'm not sure I enjoy the change but at the same thats all I want to do.

Fargo - Where is pancakes house?

a man after my own heart... anyone who would rather take pancakes over sex can be my best friends any day!!!

I am Autumn (Live).mp4

sorry this is the last one.... listen...

4 15 Holiday

....

My Feet Hurt

just take a listen... i swear i loved him once... maybe twice... and possibly still...

everytime i see his face my heart sinks to my stomach and my eyes drain.

Women

Worship me.

for I am good I am women.

you think you know it all 

you think that just because I was loose once or twice that I will be forever

well you have it all wrong.

this little girl trapped in the body of a women is cursing you up and down

because as far back as I can remember I've been angry

I've been hurt

so this little girl is the one 

playing all the tricks

and stabbing you in the back

and this women is the one who keeps the composure

so worship me because I am women

If I let out this little girl

you would think twice before

coming too close without your balls covered.

just because I was loose once isn't an excuse.

to look at me the way you do

I'm not a piece of meat.

if i let this girl out 

you might be her dinner

so keep your dick in your pants 

and turn your ego down low

and don't speak to me in any tone

because i am women

I am thinking about going to another art school again... because it just pisses me off that I have to learn all this crap that I will never use again... All I want to do is paint and at best I will only be able to take 2 more art classes. If you don't create work and aren't an artist you won't really understand but I need to do art. And if I'm not I go crazy and right now I can't function. It's insane. all I want is to teach in Alaska. And everyone is like...wow! alaska whitney? do you realize it's cold there. and my response is... do you know the boy to girl ratio? If I do not find a mate in alaska I am doomed.

I need art school... closer to Sioux Falls then Maine. Not Minnesota. I'm thinking Denver. 

Wild International - One Day As A Lion

wicked good shit!!!! i tell you what.

The rules of the game

these are a few thing i never told you...

I didn't love you at first

I only like that challenge you brought me.

fuck it... I hate this place. It's just not the same anymore.

Hanson

I love Hanson!!! I don't care what you all think...even if this does support Gelsey's comment that I only like boy bands that whine... its not true gels.... I love ween remember? I just have a special place in my heart for hanson, its not my fault I swear.

I think I might have a slight obsession with musicians... especially ones that play piano and know how to tell someone they are beautiful.

I might need help...

Suck

I was Happy once I PROMISE.... I also once believed in loving someone. but everything changes I suppose. If only I had listened to my own heart.

Cocaine

I laced my cereal with cocaine 

just so I could lose this weight

It's your fault

I love you

so much

that I can never love myself

who are you?

why am i insane

i ran today

the whole time I thought of how 

i HATE who I am

So laced my lunch with cocaine

to get the high that you once gave me

now I'm free

i threw up 

because i remembered your taste

and i couldn't get it off my tongue 

When that didn't work

I cut it off

I snorted cocaine for dinner

just so I couldn't hear your name

repeating over and over in my head.

I think I have a new love

You never really knew me you know

D.M-304-Dance Party..1/2

sweet shit!!!!!!... I watched this all day today!!!

sleep is for lame- o's

I can not sleep... right now my plan is to pull an all nighter and then go to bed early tonight.... wish me luck.  and if you see me today i recommend not talking to me because i might bite your head off. 

I am currently watching things on you tube...