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I have two eyes and a mouth, I think I might still have two ears... yes. yes. i do. I find that at my weakest moments that I am strong.

Friday, October 2, 2009

carelessly loving is just as foolish as never loving at all

When I sit alone in the darkness of the night I tend to think about deeper things than if I where amongst the sun.

Everything seems to happen for a reason and I ponder what those reasons will become. Who am and who am I meant to once be. And is your life already mapped out for you?

I want to so desperately believe that everyone is reincarnated and put back onto earth to finish their journey of pain love and happiness because if you think about it everything else on earth comes back in another form trees die decompose and then grow another tree from its nutrients.

Loving someone completely and accepting there love are entirely different concepts and when you finally accept that you are capable of being loved the light shines threw and you finally feel at home.

Life throws you curve balls and fast balls you just have to keep your eye on the prize and if you strike out keep trying because sooner or later you will hit a homerun.

To love yourself in a world that is constantly trying to tell you that you will never be enough is an accomplishment of the soul.

Im on a journey a journey of self a journey to find true happiness and peace but not in the world around me but in the people and places I am because the world will never be at peace you have to find these things amongst your own thoughts and actions and maybe eventually the rest of the world will follow in suit.

Creativity is not something someone can aim for because everyone is born with it. Its like a muscle you need to work at it and expand it. Research make things your own. Become an out of the box thinker. Society will try and conform you but stick to your guns and swim against the current.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Alanis Morissette - You Learn

I'm a sucker for alanis.... and this is my song of the week...

Fly

I feel like sinking, but I really long to fly. 


Forever is Never.

Forgive me for my faults
Because this is all I have and
As you move all her things out its blatantly obvious
Nothing is permanent
And im not stationary
I believe in romance
And fate
I believe in passion
And I need to believe in love
Commitment
I desperately grab at it
And im crying alone
Thinking of your face
Laying
Lying
To myself
Because this isn’t a fairy tale
And I miss your voice
And I miss your tone
But nothing is permanent
And im never stationary
Im nothing you need
Nothing you want
So what do you see
I’m not a replacement
For the love you are missing
And I ‘m not comparable
I look to the bottom of this river and I see silt and fish
And the absence of air frightens me
Because it’s the only constant I own
Im treading water for you
I’ll cross that bridge
As long as you don’t make me look down
And I cry because land is what I need. And this bridge is a fraud
The slits below show the water with no oxygen
And I realize land is my ocean
And your voice my sea.
And forever isn’t really forever.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I LIKE THE JONAS BROTHERS ...there i said it!

I have an apartment in sioux falls and i miss all my maine friends!!! tear tear